AMRA PURUSHRA

EKTA KURI
SABE SE DEKHECHE PRITHIBIR ALO
MAYER KOLE BARO HOCHHE SE
KEU TAK CHERAR CHESHTAO KORTE PARENI
MA TAK TAR SAB KICHU DIE AGLE REKHECHE
KINTU KATODIN AGLE RAKHBE...

SOUNDARJA LUKIE RAKHA JAY NA
EKDIN TA SAKALER NAJARE ASHE
R TAKHON THEKEI SHURU HOY BECHE THAKAR LARAI
EMON EK LARAI JA EKTA FULER JIBON EK PALAKE SESH KORE DITE PARE

R TAR JANNYE DAI AMRAI
HAAA....AMRA SABAI....KNO?
KARON AMRA ANNYAY HOTE DEKHLEO KAKHONO PRATIBAD KORI NA
KARON AMRA BHOY PAI...

TAKHON AMRA BAHBI NA
EROKOM FUL GHARE GHARE FOTE...
SAKALER GHAR ALOKITO KARE ORA..
R TADER UPOREI HOY ATTYACHAR....
KNO???EI PRASHNOR KONO UTTAR NEI...

DHIKKAR EI MANAB SABHYATAK
JARA NIJEDER SABHYA BOLE MONE KORI
AMRA KI SATTI SABHYA
TAHALE SADYA FOTA FULGULOR SAPNO KNO PISHE MERE FELI AMRA??
KNO TADER RAKHYA KORAR CHESHTA KORI NA AMRA??
KARON AMRA BHULE GECHI
AMADER JARA JANMA DAE...JARA MANUSH KORE TOLE...
AMADER EI ATTYACHAR TADER UPOREI...
TADER PRAPPA SAMMAN TUKU AMRA TADER DAE NA
KARON AMRA PURUSH...R TARA NARI...
TAI AMRA TADER SATHE JA KHUSHI KORTE PARI
TARA DURBAL...AMRA SABAL...TAI TADER AMADER KATHAMATO CHALTE HABE
TARA PUTUL AMADER HAATE...
NIJEDER SUKHER JANNYE TADER SAPNO BHANGTE AMADER KNO BANDHBE
AMRA TO PURUSH....

KOTHAYE PAI

AJKER EI KLANTO DINER SESHE
AMI KHUJ BERAI EKTUKHANI BHALOBASHA..
KINTU KOTHAI PAI??
KOTHAI PAI EI UTHAL PATHAL MONTAK EKTU SHANTO KARAR ASHRAY??
KOTHAI PAI SATTIKARER BHALOBASHA
AJKER EI MAKE I JAGATE??
EKHANE JE BHALOBASHAO BIKRI HOY

ALONE I FLY WITH A SMILE

DO YOU HAVE A LOT OF MONEY???ARE YOU A VERY GOOD STUDENT IN A REPUTED INSTITUTION???ARE YOU SURE YOU WILL GET A GOOD JOB???
YES???
WELL..THEN YOU MUST BE HAVING A LOT OF FRIENDS AROUND YOU ALWAYS READY TO HELP YOU OUT WITH ANYKIND OF PROBLEM....BY THE WAY...HOW MANY GIRLFRIENDS DO YOU HAVE....???DON'T SAY YOU DON'T HAVE ONE...I WON'T BE ABLE TO DIGEST IT....WHY???IF YOU GIVE YES FOR AN ANSWER TO ANY OF THE FIRST THREE QUESTIONS THEN YOU CAN'T BE LIVING WITHOUT FRIENDS AND GIRLFRIENDS....BCOZ NOW-A-DAYS FRIENDS ARE MADE ON THE BASIS OF MONEY....IF YOU HAVE A LOT OF THEM THEN PEOPLE WILL KEEP ON ROAMING AROUND YOU....JUST TO BE FRIENDS.....FAKE ONES THOUGH....ALL THAT THEY NEED IS THE MONEY....YOU CAN SPEND FOR THEM....
I AM ALSO NO EXCEPTION TO THIS....I HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS WHO I AM SURE ARE FRIENDS JUST FOR FUN....TIME PASS....NOT FOR LIFE.....THEY ARE NOT THE ONE WITH WHOM YOU CAN SHARE YOUR SORROWS....THEY ARE THERE FOR THE OTHER PART ONLY i.e. FUN AND JOY....AND SO ALONE I FLY WITH A SMILE.....

UTTAR DAO.......

DANKURAKUR BADDI BAJ MA ELO BARITE.....
SANKHA CHAKRA GADA HATE ASHUR DAMAN KORTE...
SEI ANANDE SABAI SAMIL.....BACHHA THEK BURO.....
EI 4 DIN CHUTIE MASTI KORTE HABE PURO.....

SASHTHITE MA ELO GHAR ALO KORE
SAPTAMITE PURUTMASHAI MANTRA PAREN SUR E...
ASHTAMITE ANJALI R DARUN KHAWADAWA.....
PASHER PARAR MEYEK DEKHE ALTO HASHI HASHA...
NABAMITE THAKUR DEKHA SATHE JAMIE ADDA...
DASHAMITE ASHRUJAL E MA K BIDAY DEWA......

DINGULO KATLO KHUB ANANDE...
KINTU JARA PAINI TADER SAPNO.....
TADER KATHA KI EKBARO BHEBECHI AMRA...
JADER GHARE JALENI ALO...
TADER GHARE KI ALO JALABAR CHESHTA KORECHI AMRA....
BODH HOY NA....
KINTU KNO NA....???
AMRA KI ETOTAI SARTHPOR...

MEGHE DHAKA AKASH

DEKHE MONE HOCHHILO NIL AKASH KALO MEGHER ARALE DHEK GECHE.....GHANA KALO CHUL R KALO CHURIDARER ARALE CHALE GECHE NIL RANGER JEANS......AKASHTAO TAKHON MEGHE DHAKA.....SEDIN CHILO TAR SATHE PRATHAM ALAAP....ALAAPER SHURU HOY JHAGRA DIE....SADHARON EKTTA PRASHNO.....AR UTTARTA???MONE HOLO AMAR PASHE BAJRAPAT HOYECHE....OI EKTA UTTAREI KNO JNO BHISON BHALO LEGE GECHILO....BHABLAM BANDHUTTA KORBO....KINTU MEGHER SATHE KI BANDHUTTA KARA JAY..???..MEGHE DHAKA AKASH K BHALOBASHA JAY....DEKHA JAY.....KINTU TAR SATHE BANDHUTTAO HOY NA.....TAK KACHEO PAWA JAY NA.....KINTU MON TAI BA KI KORE....MON TA J BAROI ABUJH....BADDO BHALOBESHE FELECHE TAK....

CHOTOBELA

EKHONO MONE ACHE CHOTO BELAR SEI TUKRO TUKRO GHATANAGULO,
TAKHON AMI ANEK CHOTO,PRITHIBIR CHAKRABUHE SADDYA MATRA PRABESH KORECHI,
KICHUI JANINA,PRITHIBIR KATHINATA,RURATA TAKHONO AMI DEKHINI,
SEI SAMAYER KATHA AJO MONE PORE...

SEI LAKKHI PUJAR DIN PURUTMASAI SEJE PUJA KARA,
SEI AMER ATI DIE GAE SABAN MAKHA...[:P]...,

SEI GHURIR PICHONE CHOTA,GACHE UTHE JAM PARA,
JHARER SAMAY AAM KUROTE JAWA,
MONE ACHE EKHONO......

BESH ANANDE CHILAM....

KONO BADHAN CHILO NA,PRAN BHARE BACHTAM TAKHON,

KINTU EKHON AMI BARO HOYECHI,JENECHI ANEK KICHU,
PRITHIBITA K CHINECHI,
R CHINE NIEI JENO BARO KLANTA HOYE PORECHI,
EKHON JENO MARE GECHI,
PRAN E NA....MONE,

MAJHE MAJHE MONE HOY,
EBHABE BECHE KI LABH,

TAKHON JENO CHOTOBELAR SMRITI GULO RO TAJA HOYE OTHE,
ICHHA KARE ABAR FIRE JETE SEI CHOTOBELATE,
ABAR MAYER KOLE SHUYE ADAR KHETE,
BABA R KACHE EKTA LOZENS ER JANNYE ABDAR KORTE,
ABAR BADHAN HARA HOYE JIBON TAK UPOBHOG KORTE,

SEI SUJOG KI EKBARO PABO,

MATRA EKTA BAR..??????????

FRIENDSHIP OR LOVE

SHE IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS....NO..SORRY....WAS....NOW SHE IS THE BEST OF MY BEST FRIENDS...ONE ON WHOM I CAN COMPLETELY RELY ON....SHE IS MY LOVE...DON'T THINK SHE IS MY GIRLFRIEND....I LOVE HER....

THE FIRST DAY WE MET...I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY....OUR FRIENDSHIP STARTED WITH QUARREL....ASKING HER NAME WAS THE ONLY THING I DID.....BUT I AM GLAD THAT SHE STARTED PULLING MY LEGS....OTHERWISE OUR FRIENDSHIP WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN SO STRONG......HAHA...CAN U IMAGINE...SOMEONE PULLING MY LEGS...AND I AM GLAD.....

WHEN I FELT THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH HER I FACED ONE OF THE TOUGHEST PROBLEMS I HAVE EVER FACED IN MY LIFE.....U MUST BE THINKING WHAT'S THE PROBLEM IN LOVING A GIRL.....JUST GO AND PROPOSE HER....ACCEPTED......JUMP AND GIVE A PUNCH IN THE AIR OR SMILE AT UR FATE....REJECTED...COME BACK HOME...CRY FOR A FEW DAYS...THEN BACK TO THE NORMAL LIFE.....NAHHHHHHHH.....MY PROBLEM WAS NOT THE FEAR OF GETTING REJECTED....PROBLEM WAS THAT SHE WAS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS.....THE QUESTION IN FRONT OF ME WAS...."FRIENDSHIP OR LOVE"???

NO TOSS....NO CALCULATION CAN HELP U OUT....NEITHER U HAVE THE OPTION OF LISTENING TO YOUR HEART OR BRAIN....BCOZ THE MATTER IS COMPLETELY CONTROLLED BY YOUR HEART....ULTIMATELY I TOOK THE DECISION.....

"FRIENDSHIP"

DON'T KNOW WHETHER I AM RIGHT OR WRONG...BUT STILL I DID IT....COZ SHE WANTED THAT....AND MY HAPPINESS IS COMPLETLEY DEPENDENT ON THE SWEET SMILE ON HER FACE.....IF SHE LOSES IT LOSING MY FRIENDSHIP THEN ITS BETTER THAT I SACRIFICE MY LOVE FOR HER SMILE.....

CAN I ASK YOU A QUESTION....PLS ANSWER ME....DO U THINK I AM WRONG ???IF YES THEN WHY???AND IF NO THEN WHY??

PAIN

EVERY MOMENT I LIVE
EVERY MOMENT I BREATHE
I CAN FEEL THE PAIN

DEEP IN MY HEART
I SEARCH FOR THE REASON
BUT TO FIND NOTHING EXCEPT DEAD EMOTIONS

IN MY SEARCH FOR A LITTLE BIT OF JOY
I DROWN IN THE OCEAN OF SORROWS
WITH NO WAY OUT

THERE IS NO PLACE FOR ME TO LIVE
NOWHERE TO RUN
NOWHERE TO GO

I MAY REMAIN AS A MEMORY IN UR MIND
BUT U AS A KILLER IN MY HEART

WHY KILLER?
YOU KILLED MY EMOTIONS
YOU MADE MY HEART DESERTED
A DESERT OF FRUSTATION AND SADNESS

I CAN'T LAUGH ANYMORE
NEITHER CAN I CRY
ONLY THING MY HEART SAYS NOW...
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE"

I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TAKE REVENGE
BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU

DON'T KNO HOW CAN SOMEONE LOVE OTHER
EVEN AFTER KNOWING SHE IS THE ONE WHO KILLED HIM

IS THIS THE REASON FOR WHICH WE FALL IN LOVE
TO LOVE AND SACRIFICE
NOT TO LIVE

PORA CIGARETTE

BANDHUDER SUTREI PRATHAM ALAAP TOMAR SATHE.....
PRATHAM DINEI MONE HOYECHILO TOMAK CHARA R THAKTE PARBO NA.....
DHIRE DHIRE SETA RO GARO HOLO......
MONE EKTA ASHA JEGE UTHECHILO.......
KEU NA THAKLEO TUMI ANTATO AMAR PASHE THAKBE......
KINTU NA....TUMIO THAKLE NA.......
NIBHE GELE......CHERE CHALE GELE.....

MOM IS THE ONE

A LITTLE CHILD...WAITING FOR HIS MOTHER TO COME....IN FRONT OF A MUSICAL INSTRUMENT SHOP....LISTENING TO THE MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS THE CUSTOMERS PLAYED...INSIDE THE LITTLE SHOP....SUDDENLY HIS EYES CAUGHT A TOPAZ COLOURED GUITAR HANGING IN THE SHOWCASE...A SPANISH GUITAR....WOW...THAT WAS THE WORD THAT COME OUT OF HIS MOUTH....SUDDENLY HE FELT...THIS IS FOR ME....FOR ME ONLY.....HIS MOM CAME....HE WENT HOME...BUT DIDN'T SAY A SINGLE WORD....ABOUT HIS INTERNAL DESIRE.....BUT INSIDE HE HAD ALREADY PLANNED OF BUYING IT.....BUT MONEY???....SAVING IS THE ONLY WAY....HE STARTED WORKING AS PER HIS PLANS....STUDIED HARD....AS A REWARD A CHOCOLATE IS THE ONLY THING HE WANTED....BUT THE MONEY WENT IN TO HIS PIGGY BANK....THE DAYS WERE GOING WELL....EVERYDAY HE LOOKED AT THE SHOWCASE....JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT THE GUITAR IS THERE...
THE NEXT WEEK...THERE WAS A SPECIAL DAY....IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY....BUT THERE WAS NOTHING SPECIAL....AS USUAL HE WENT TO SCHOOL....AND RETURNED.....BUT ON HIS WAY BACK HOME...HE SAW THAT GUITAR WAS GONE....HIS HEART SANK......A DROP OF TEAR WENT DOWN THE CHEEKS...DROPPED ON THE ROAD.....HE WENT BACK HOME....DISHEARTENED.....HIS DREAMS SHATTERED.....BUT MOM KNOWS EVERYTHING.....HIS DREAM CAME TRUE

CIGARETTE

I LOVE YOU
I NEED YOU
I WANT YOU
A PART OF U ALWAYS STAY IN ME
YOU HELP ME FORGET ALL MY PAINS
THOUGH THEY CREEP IN TO MY MIND IN YOUR ABSENCE
BUT STILL THAT LITTLE TIME U SPEND WITH ME
ARE MEMORIES....THAT I CHERISH......
DEEP IN MY HEART..YOU ARE THERE
PEOPLE SAY YOU ARE HURTING ME
DESTROYING ME....
YOU ARE KILLING ME
SLOWLY....PAINFULLY..
BUT I LIKE THIS PAIN
SOMETIMES PAIN MAKES YOU SO HAPPY

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golgal ekta mukhe....tana tana chokh.......
nakta singarar mato.....sabsamay hashe......
prathambar dekhe mone hoyechilo...
EKTA BACHHA MEYE.....
j bastab er rurata k ekhono dakheni...
bojhe na manusher swarthapar mon k.....
tar kache sabai apon....sabai tar mon er madhye basha bandhe....
bhul bhebechilam.....ei sishu sulabh mukher arale lukie ache eto betha...
ei tana tana chokher jal e lukie ache eto kashto......takhon bujhini.......
jharer mato eshechilo amar jibone....sab kichu olot palot kore diechilo....
abaseshe ekdin ei montak eka fele rekhe ure chale gelo....
dure....kono ak achinpur e.....
jar sandhan ami ajo paini.........kintu asha charini.....ajo tai chute chalechi sei achena patha.....
ACHINPUR ER KHOJE........

K SE????

eka dariechilam.....
hothat ekta chotto meye eshe amak bollo...
amar bandhu hobe....
bandhu...ha hobo...
tahale amar deshe chalo....
tomar desh...seta kothaye.....
esho na....haat dhore nie challo se amak....
nie challo ek ajana pathe.......
kono ek achinpure...
tar rajya ta baro adbhut.......
sabai moner anande khele berachhe....
karo kono kichute badha nei....
karo madhye kono bibad nei.......
sabai jno ek....
ami bollam...
e tumi amaye kothaye nie ele...
eta amar desh.....
amra tomader mato na....
tomra baro sarthapar.......sankirnamana....subidhabadi..
ek samay amader k chao....r amra ashle balo
uff kno j elo.....
hothat k jno meyetak haat dhore dek bollo...
kothaye chili tui....
takhon thek khujchi......
amader jawar samay hoye geche re.......
emon samay kotha thek jno ekta dal chute ashlo......
jno juddha bedhe gelo dui dal er madhye.......
amr bhayarta mukhte dekhe meyeta bollo....
bhoy peo na.....eta amader khela....
meye ta amar dik takie bollo.....
aj ashi arekdin katha hobe....hothat kothaye jno milie gelo....
chitkar kore uthlam...
darao.....abar kobe dekha hobe....
uttar pelam na.....amar katha jno pratidhani hoye amari kane bajte laglo.....
kheyal holo.....
brishti nemeche........

ajk sakal thekei akshta meghla....kmon jno mon kharap kora chehara.....gumot hoe ache......bela garie bikal holo...akasher kono herfer nei..sei ekirokom monmora ekta chehara.....
pasher barir chotto meyetar janmadin ajk.....kintu kaj er jannye tar baba dudin holo kolkatar baire geche.....dupure ferar katha tar....chotto meyeta babar path cheye boshe ache.....bikel hoye geche ekhono fereni she......anmona hoye boshechilam meghla akasher dik takie....hothat kheyal holo...baireta andhakar hoye geche....gharite baj 5:30....kichu bhabte na bhabtei bajra bidyut saha brishti namlo....pasher bari thek chotto meyetar kannar awaj shunte pelam......"BABA KNO ASHBE NA"......kichukkhon pore television er pardaye fute uthlo ekta headline.....'plane accident e besh kichu jatri mara geche........'

I kno i can't write...but today i wanna write something....to xpress my thots...feelings....those that have been suppressd for so long in my mind wanna come out....and spread into the heart of all the people out there...busy doing there jobs...runnin with their full energy to win the race they r in....but I can't write....i can't xpress them....they just die...in my mind...in my heart....i am a killer....i killed my own thots....which cud have been a little child of mine...a creation....is now justa mere memory.....I kno this is killin me only....but wat can I do....this is not like other things......
monk die jor kore anek kichu karano jay....moner upore to amader sampurna adhikar....tai amra kakhono or katha shunina....kintu k shunbe tahale moner katha....keu na....eka ei mon pore thak....sunya ei prithibir buk....kintu ei mon k die keu jor kor kakhono kichu lekhate pare na....moner katha na shunle mon ki kore lekhe baloto.........anubhab korar khamata moneri ache....kintu mon k bojhar khamata amader nei......jadi thakto tahale prithibir buk ajk ei hahakar amader dekhte hoto na.....

DI.....

chotor thek kono dino kauk didi bole dakar sujog paini.......bhai bon o chilo na kono.......ma baba chilo amar bhai bon sab kichu........bandhu???......haa bandhu chilo......kintu sarther bandhu.......nihsanga hoye eka boshe thaktam........mone anek katha ashto jgulo bolte ichha korto kintu bolte partam na.....sei na bola katha gulo k i ba bujhbe....ki korei ba bujhbe.....sabai j nijk nie baroi chintito.....baro besto nijder jibon k ro bhalo kore tolar jannye.....annyar katha shonar mato samay tader kothaye???....sei samay tomar katha khub mone porto......bhabtam kobe ashbe tumi.......aj tumi amar kache eshecho.......amar moner katha bujhecho tumi......dekho aj ami kato anande achi......amar char pasher akash batash o jno amar sathe neche berachhe.......tarao khushi amar tomak khuj pawate.......kintu ei anander sathe sathe mone ek bhoy jege othe......hothat sab jno kmon elomelo hoye jay.....EKTA KATHA BHEBE....."SABSAMAY TUMI AMAR PASHE THAKBE TO"..........

THIS IS FOR MY DI

DON'T BLAME YOUR FATE...

Everyday has got some specialities in its own way…..if we give a thought to everyday activities then we will see even though they seem to be more or less same but still they r different….each activity teach us some lesson or the other everyday….but we humans r too wise to understand them....when you go out the next day try to sort out what u learn….what you experience….what you hear….you will see it will make life much more easier for you….coz time teaches us every moment in one way or the other….but we are not attentive enough to learn them….and when we face similar situations later in a more serious manner then we can’t solve them and blame our so called fate..

BUT

u r the one whom i love,
u r the one for whom i live,
u r the one who make my heartbit fast,
all day i think of you,
u r the one whose smilin face makes me smile,
but can u tell me y?
u don't love me....but still i love you,
u don't understand me....but still i love you,
did u ever realize how much i love you....
u r the one who made me wat i am today,
isolated i was bfore i saw u,
u made me understand the meanin of company,
but then y did u leave me,
don't kno....
and even tho u left me u r still with me....
my innersmile..i carry u with me wherever i go...
will u return to me oneday....?
may b may b not...
but..................

TRUE FRIEND

A lot of people say its imposible to find true friends in today's world...Others say its not......But is it true.....Just a few days back I was standin in an auto line at GARIA......while going to my friends house....all of a sudden I saw a little girl in a torn frock....moving from one person to another..beggin for alms.... She was the same girl whom I see almost everyday.....when I go thru that place.....She didn't have ny friends.....but still she had one...one who never left her side....and will also remain in future.....SORROWS...FEAR...the truest friend of everyone......Whoever u be...sorrows will never leave you....Happy moments remain for a short span....but even when u r happy u have the fear of loosin that happiness....Can u remember any happy moments when u r in MISERY.....???.....U can't.....But u can do the opposite....so better not deny ur true friend....coz even if u try to go away from it it will never leave ur side......and if u accept it...u will b the happiest person in the world